It's funny, doing this video reminds me of the last time I actually painted something........you could hang. This painting was it and it was July. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I mean I knew but... well anyways.
I don't know, I feel like I lost my mojo. I seriously think that for a time I was or am suffering kind of a post traumatic stress from the accident. I was really not myself for a while and I mean really not myself. I couldn't stand it. My usual plough through stuff and get tons done was gone, nowhere to be found. I was left with this person who couldn't remember where she put things, couldn't figure out what to do next. Part of it I am sure was having to cope with not only the reality of what had happened but also everything to follow.
You know human nature, you see people for who they really are at difficult times. You realize how corrupt the system is, how corrupt some people are. Deep down you tell yourself that despite the anger, greed, and violence that the world is a good place and is just. At difficult times..... sometimes you find out it is not. And you struggle to find a way to move on from it. To find those warm fuzzy feelings that settle you into a happy existence.
It sure glares at you when you come back to your blog to see how many.......choke, months it's been since you posted something. C'est la vie.
I have been busy however...... doing lots of things. Like, I recently finally finished our "Future Flight Path" installation at École Powerview School. I am so happy with how it turned out. I'm sharing the link to the video.
I have also been dabbling heavily in photography lately too. I sure am loving it! I did a photo shoot with my niece and nephews late this afternoon and had a chance to edit a few.
They are sooooo cute! The boys are at that age where it is so not cool to hold their little sister's hands but I basically told them they had no choice lol.
And last but certainly not least, I have my first video set ready to upload to icreateflix... wahoooo! It is actually a video version of a live workshop I did with several classes when I was doing integrated arts in Winnpeg last spring. Truth be told the teachers had just as much fun doing it as the kids. I'm uploading tonight. Will post links as soon as it goes live. I've also starting getting ready to film my segment for soulfood 2015! Wow time is creeping up on me. Wish I had more of it.
Sorry, I guess this is going to be a bit of a long one. I had so many plans for the blog and website this summer, weekly tutorial posts, lots of awesome fun stuff. With my computer crashing non stop in June and July it was a challenge to get anything on line done. The silver lining to that dark cloud is they replaced it with twice the computer I had. I love Apple for that.
Unfortunately in the midst of all this, there was a tragedy in my family. My brother and his fiancé were killed in a motorcycle accident. I did do a post on my Facebook page where a spoke about it a little and my thoughts on what had happened. It has been a difficult summer. I guess the stress of it all seems to be making it difficult for me to stay focused and on task. I am creating some stuff, but not as much as I would like to. The kids being home all summer makes housework higher on the priority list, and you tend to do things together more.
I do have some wonderful news however, I been contacted by Cara from ICreateFlix.com, an online indie art fest which offers up online art lessons from artists all over the world and I am so excited to be becoming a part of their journey. They actually donate a portion of all sales to create positive change in the world weather it be child poverty or human trafficking. I am currently working on my first video for my shop and I will let you know when it is finished!
I am asking myself this a lot lately. I know where I have been.......all over the place. I have been fortunate enough to have been blessed with some wonderful grant opportunities this year as well as a term contract teaching integrated arts in several schools. It kept me busy.
I am back in the swing however, will be doing some of the other artists lessons over at soulfood and I am working on some of my own goodies to offer. I am going to do my best to finish my Magazines to Masterpiece workshop so I can get it into the shop. I still have to finish the actual overhaul of my website, which will hopefully happen very soon. Sometimes I feel discouraged because others seem to have it all together and I seem to be like a feather in the wind. It's me. Love me or leave me and I am learning to accept that and loving those who love me for it.
I am very excited that École Powerview School and I will soon be ready to reveal our installation that I did with the middle years kids which covered migration. It was awesome. I did a simple wall mural to create the perfect background for our flock of paper geese.
I will post some pictures of the finished install when it is done. Funny but nobody will see it in person until the fall when school starts, helps build anticipation right? When the kids realized what the mural was for they were beside themselves and couldn't wait to see it finished.
I am going to find some time somewhere to put together a little tutorial showing one of the classes I did with my integrated arts kids which was a hit. Even the teachers were pumped about doing them. My blobimal lesson plan is foolproof and that is why they all loved it. There is no failure with this, only fun.
Stay tuned and if you are in the central parts of Canada, stay dry! We have had some KA-razy weather this last few days. Trees down, tons of rainfall and flooding. Not good :(
Yes, it is hard to be sweet. Especially when those around you are angry, frustrated, over-worked and stressed out. It is amazing what kindness can do. Sometimes it comes simply in the form of just being sweet. When someone gives you vinegar, give them back some honey. Then you can mix them together and make a vinaigrette and you have a lovely salad dressing for your healthy salad.
Ok that was corny, as my husband would say. He throws that at me constantly, "You are the queen of corn" then says "but I love you."
I remember one time when my daughter was 8, we waited in a very long, after christmas, return line at Costco. She said to me:
"Mom, that lady looks mad." (the teller)
I said to her "Well cutie, I am sure that with everyone bringing stuff back and the long lines she is on her feet lots and having to deal with grumpy people because they are mad that they have to wait."
Like somehow they are surprised that there is a huge return line up after Christmas? I don't get that.
I told her "I bet you if you are nice to her, even though she is grumpy, you will make her smile." She says to me "Well how do I do that mom!" I said "when you get close to her, take a good look at her and find something nice to say about her, something genuine. Maybe she has nice earrings or pretty eyes. It doesn't have to be something stunning, ("Whats that mom?"-"Really really awesome". "OH, ok.") just her best thing." She says "k Mom."
We get to the counter and I am trying to be pretty sweet too, though I can feel her negative energy as thick as heavy fog. It is hard to be near that and keep your wits about you. My daughter peering over the counter at her, I can see her eyes searching, thinking about the teller's "best thing".
Out from her lips comes "I think you have really pretty hair!" with a big smile on her face like she just dropped a diamond on the counter.
The woman's face transformed. A huge grin spreading from ear to ear, seriously her whole face lifted. Truthfully I could swear she was blushing a bit. "Well thank you!" she exclaimed. Her shoulders lifted she bounced around doing our return. We were all smiling.
We leave her, and my daughter looks at me and says "Wow mom! You were right."
I told her "you were being real, you said something you really felt and she felt that. You can always find something nice to say about someone, if you look really hard. It just takes you caring enough to do it. We are like drops in a puddle and you can either send out good ripples or bad ripples but either way your ripples will go out and and they will hit something."